im different...

so today was one of those days that i realized that im different. maybe im weird. maybe i am special as raquel would say... but i think i am real different. i dont have the same desires that lots of the people close to me do. and i get frustrated with myself sometimes becuase i want to change and break free of the materialism that surrounds me but i cant. why was i so blessed to live in a rich country. to have food every meal. to go to college. to have clothes and a place to live. a pretty easy life. why was i blessed with this? and what am i doing with this blessing?

i dont want to live the american dream. i dont want to live in a house and have 2 cars, a full time office job and kids on the way (this is not a bad thing for those who do have this.. i am just saying that its not for me) i dont want to be attached to things of this world. i dont want a typical american style wedding. i dont want to be confortable. i get frustrated seeing money thrown around (i am not innocent either) when there are people dying from lack of food or shelter. why do i need that new sweater when people dont have anything to wear? grr...

i do want to stop buying things that are unnecessary. i want to live a life that is simple. i want to stop eating junk food. i want to be different. i want to make a difference in this world. i want to help people by helping them to meet their physical needs and most of all spiritual needs.

I know God is going to use me. I dont know how though.

it frustrates me that i can find things to complain about when there are people that have no food. they have no house. noone who loves them and people that dont know Jesus.

I am not saying that anyone needs to change. i am just saying that we need to think more about the world. why are we so blessed to live in a rich country and what are we goign to do with that blessing?

So if you were inspired by anything i wrote, check out www.gfa.org or www.worldvision.org

we can make a difference in someones life. and God loves you. if you dont know that, please think about it. He really does love you and wants to know YOU! He sent His Son to die for your sins.. man thats a lot of love.

well have a good day and remember i am not asking you to change, just think about things. maybe i am weird. but this has been in my heart and i wanted to share it.

peace out.